Pretty sure I am gonna spend Mon and Tues with our own tutu wearing freakin' Rican. I hope so.
me too
Unconfirmed reports are saying that he has settled down a bit. Possibly even wearing drawers under his Tutu...
Probably Batman underoos.....none the less....anything should be better than his "free range' days...
Originally Posted by UR darlin
Hey you. So. ..uRworthy would say keep busy, keep moving forward, it's a marathon not a race..and all of that is true.. Your. Friend, D, is going to say.. "you need to have freakin patience with yourself. Because I can read between the lines cuz I know you. And you are wanting to be further along. STOP that.
I love you both dearly Darlin.....so I'm gonna try this on for size...
You see me perhaps clearer than I see myself at times...so if you are seeing it, then there is truth in there.
Here's the part where I say otherwise, and then you can come back and tell me that I'm full of it : )
I don't feel that I am rushing anything, yet it is entirely possible that I am. This thing coming up, has spiraled completely out of control, so I stopped trying to control it. I've stepped back and washed my hands of almost all of it. and I'm at the point where I just want it to be over already.
The bittersweet part is that I get to see y'all, yet the reason is 50 shades of F'ed up....
Her Father is driving me insane about it, and although I have set , and will continue to set boundaries with him, I feel that I need to draw some really hard ones. I'm kind of waiting until after her service to see what happens then. If my sanity lasts that long. Maybe that's where my impatience is lurking...just ready to be done dealing with him about this.
I'm aware that I can be done at any time. I just know that IF this gets F'ed up in any way, it will feel a disservice to her. So there is a part of me that feels that I have to stay involved, and it feels so passive aggressive at times, manipulative even. THAT is the part of me that I am sacrificing for this, for her. She would tell me that Funerals are for the living, and to back away, and she doesn't need this to happen. And dammit, I know she's right cause she is on my shoulder screaming it at me. Although I know that she is the only one in her family that could see it that way, except her Son. So maybe it's the anxiety over the perception, and showing her family how deep my love for their K is, that is making me crazy and impatient......when all that truly matters is how I feel, and how I love her.....
Sigh...that ^^ just snapped in my head...
There is some excitement to being there, and maybe there is some impatience in that also. Once there and the ceremonial part is done, THAT is the part that I want to last for way longer than it will...
