8 month old baby and upcoming divorce part 2

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Newborn,

Well, I thought the divorce was supposed to happen Monday, but apparent stbx didn't tell me the court date got moved.

Don't the courts notify you and/or your L directly? Why are you relying on stbx for something like that?

I had taken the day off anyway so went snorkelling where the ocean was the most beautiful I've seen possibly ever - completely clear, gorgeous out. I went alone so didn't venture too far out but the water was fantastic.

Awesome! Perfect GAL. I'm a scuba diver and snorkel too. Great activity.

I went out again with a couple friends today

Great! Keep it up.

and had stbx babysit. He sees the baby maybe once per week or two for a couple hours.

His loss. Always amazes me when people don't want to be engage with their children.

The poor little guy has been teething horribly and just crying and crying but with periods of calm and happy in between.

Babies can be tough. Teething is the worst. Poor guy.

They'd go on family vacations multiple times per year: Italy, parts of the US, skiing, etc. I wasn't invited for about 6 years of this, including while we were engaged; it wasn't until we were married for a few years that I was invited.

For 6 years they went on family vacations - even while you were engaged - and didn't invite you? This is a major red flag. Lessons learned for the next relationship. Don't ever allow yourself to be treated as an outsider with someone you're committed to again.

I felt like I should call him back to apologize.

But then it's like - no, his mom was toxic, but he never had told me.

Good you thought better of it - no need to reach out for something like that.

I wish I could just be indifferent as he seems to be toward me.

You'll get there. It takes time. You're doing well. Continue to focus on yourself and the baby.