I love to walk/hike and yoga/pilates. I have invested a bit in home based gym gear such as hand weights, bands, balls, etc. No exercise machines. My apartment is too small to go crazy. I tried running but never could get into it. I have worked out at a gym, but never with a trainer. Maybe I’d like it more if I tried a trainer…who would keep me motivated and committed to going! I also used to ride horses which I would love to do again and is quite the workout.
As for my outlook about my ex and all, I think I’m a realist. Logically I see how things were and what person he is. But convincing my heart to stop feeling some of the hurt has been harder. I find that really strange. I kind of think it’s just because I was trauma bonded or used to having him in my life. I do feel pretty detached, I know I deserve better and I’m excited about the future, but, I have been a bit thrown back by his marriage…and the fact that no one has mentioned it to me. Why should I care? I have a strong feeling the relationship won’t work out long term. I hope it’s just because I fear the loss of or distance with the family as a result, more than anything to do with my ex.
I don’t know, but I’m doing my best to distract myself from that circus and keep the focus on myself and my health, and my goals for my future. At least I am making good progress with that!
El
Me 52, H 56 T10 M7, 2nd MR for both 2 Step Sons (19 and 21) BD: Fall 2020 D finalized: July 2022 XH Married AP soon after D day.
