No one has mentioned my XHs MR to OW to me yet. I’m not sure if it’s because no one really is aware (as they did move away from everyone) or if no one wants to tell me. Honestly, I’ve not really heard from anyone on his side since. So a part of me has fears that folks are distancing from me. My XH did reach out post his marriage about the kids, but made no mention of his MR. And I did not either. Maybe he was testing to see if I knew?
On one hand, I did expect them to marry at some point. They have a story that they need to tell. But is it weird that I feel hurt that the ink was barely dry on our D before they did it? I know I don’t want him back, but I do still feel the feelings of being discarded. Rejection at any level hurts…so I’m doing my best to remind myself that being rejected by someone who really isn’t worthy is not worth focusing on.
I’ve been out GALing and enjoying my summer. I’ve made some new friends and have been physically and emotionally feeling better. I’ve dropped at least 10 lbs and I’m exercising a lot more. I worry as the seasons change that it will be harder to maintain with the days getting shorter (and I am not very comfortable going out walking by myself after dark). And working out at a gym is not really my thing either.
I’ve not started any OLD profiles yet. I’ve signed up on a couple of apps, but just have been poking around with an empty profile. I’ve been listening to a lot of podcasts about dating (post divorce or otherwise) and I’m getting excited about it. But with just finishing my training course and working on getting myself ready to start seeking employment has been my bigger priority lately. If I met someone and they asked me out, I’d be willing, but otherwise, I’ve not really felt the rush to get my profiles up or invest in dating. I don’t feel desperate about it. Which is good I guess. I’m also going to be traveling this fall, so my focus is elsewhere. I do tend to look around me when I’m out and about for any potential opportunities to meet someone organically.
Well, that’s about all that’s been going on with me. Sad that Summer is coming to an end. Winter is very long where I live. The kids will be home for some of the time during the holidays, so I’m excited about that, even if I know I will get only very limited time with them.
That’s about all at the moment. Still making progress every day!
El
Me 52, H 56 T10 M7, 2nd MR for both 2 Step Sons (19 and 21) BD: Fall 2020 D finalized: July 2022 XH Married AP soon after D day.
