Thanks E! I’m getting excited and nervous it I did need to shake things up a bit. I really did love my job but it’s time to move forward.
As far as the guys, I have dated more than one at a time, well, at least spoke to a few guys at a time and went on early dates. It’s a bit distracting for me and I really don’t have time to do it. When I do it, it does help from getting invested on one, but also when I do that, once I like one more, the other one is gone. I also generally have sex with guys right away, believe it or not. Kind of seems that way, but I don’t. But i also don’t wait 15-20 dates, that’s like 6 months at the rate I get to see someone maybe 1-2 times a week! I definitely need a break from dating. It’s been extra rough out there lately. It makes me cringe now. Definitely not a good place to be in when dating.
I had a very nice time down by my cousins . Good food, nice beach, fun gambling . Won $700! Woot woot! Went to the outlets on my way home and bought myself a new purse for under $100. Almost snagged the sunglasses I’ve wanted, but I couldn’t bring myself to spend the money. D’s Bday is in 3 weeks and I got the cash for the gift she wants which is great. She’s coming home late tonight. I miss her, can’t wait to see her. And hear about the boys her and her BFF met. Lord help me.
And Mach, I was thinking, re: validation. I seek it and crave it on my big life decisions . It’s true. I’m afraid to fail and hear a big “ I told you so” . Validation from men is something I don’t need. I don’t want it. I couldn’t give a flying F about it actually. Maybe that’s what makes me seem closed off.
I’m struggling a little bit because my friends daughter was supposed to intern with me and is she can’t. I hope I’m it messing things up too badly. I’m terrified to break it to her, which I am shortly. I am going to see if I can get someone else to take her on. I hate messing this up for her, but I have to make this decision for me
