After he sent me the music video link, I simply sent him one text telling him ow much I enjoyed it then let it be. I figured he would tell me more when he was ready. So this afternoon I received this text from him:
"I sincerely tried to spare you my mercurial spirit. My apologies for not being a decent person"
Now- I know that's vague as heck and without context hard to understand. But from what I know of him, he's probably saying that he stayed away from me because he didn't want me to be hurt by his inconsistent moods and felt that it was better for me if he disappeared. He tends to be very hard on himself, has bad depressive episodes, and because of a complicated childhood and poor past relationship history, he tries not to get too close to people - all things that I absolutely knew up front and was fine with. Poor guy - I feel bad that he thought I wasn't up to the challenge of being his friend without expectations - I always have been.
Anyway, it's nice to get an apology and to hear he's alive. Poor guy. I'm glad I kept letting him now I was here as his friend.
