Originally Posted by Grace_OM
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I have always had a small bit of a patience problem....


Also, this somehow seems to fit wink "Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears." ~Barbara Johnson

One of the nice things about journaling, is being able to get that energy out in front of you so you can look at it and evaluate whether the thoughts are something you actually believe and if they are serving you in your quest, whatever that may be. To do that requires the good, the bad and the ugly...yes, yes I went there (did you just hear Morricone too?)

Feelings are hard period and given your story, all the more so. That you recognize the burying of emotion and have pulled out the shovel is really quite a feat. I am familiar with that mindset and the distance you have come is truly commendable. Sometimes we just can see it when we're right on top of it.



Patience ???

How long is that gonna take ???

Sigh...

Seriously though..

I fought hard a few years ago to not let my culture and upbringing rule me anymore.

And you know how hard of a road that was for me.

I still have a very hard time of not crawling inside of myself and hiding. So to attempt to lay myself out there open and vulnerable is something that has become easier over the years, yet I fight that urge a lot.

So I force myself to put it out there. Some days it's easier than others, some days it's harder. I assume you can tell the difference.

Just look at my posts, and if it says " nothing today" , well, that pretty much sums it up...


And thanks.....now I can't get that dammed whistle out of my head ....

: )