It's good to hear that you can be thankful for her and almost smile. These memories will eventually let you talk story and in my world, that's how we honor those we love. Besides, you have a knack for the story
I know, you know, that through the pain is the only way you'll be able to find all the joy in those memories. If talking story helps, you have the floor. (((((Hugs)))))
Hey there yourself Sunshine !!!
Stories are getting there, smiles are getting there, just a loooooong road. And as it was so eloquently pointed out to me recently....
I have always had a small bit of a patience problem....
And dammmm....reading back through all of this, it sounds as if I am really pathetic with it all. And while there are times when I am, they aren't as common now as they have been. You know me, and when I journal, it is pure feelings and emotions. One of the reasons that I started the thread, was to have an outlet to get that out. IRL, I am not typically that way. My Appalachian heritage had always ingrained into me about burying feelings and suppressing emotion. One of my things I fought hard for with the fight for self several years ago.
Now, I just type straight from the heart to my fingers, remove the brain ( which has never been such a challenge), and just lay it all out there....
Good, Bad, Indifferent....it's all in there....
Stories may have to wait a bit.....They are still finding room in my head....
