Look what the Cat dragged in.....Literally

[Mach1]

I’m sorry you are struggling as well. You really are coming along though and processing your grief which is a very healthy thing. I think everyone tries to rush their grief at some point with a big loss. I think grief is one of the hardest processes and emotions that exists. No linear to path either. But you do a great job of honoring her and yourself and you just can’t do much better than that.

Thanks G...

Honoring her has taken on a few different levels as time has passed.

I do feel that the level I am at now (or at least working toward) is where I need to be...

And that is trying to live my life best way I can, and just do the best that I can everyday.

It is, by far, the hardest thing I have faced. It's in my face every minute, that she is gone.

Yet somehow, I manage to get out of bed, feed the Dog and her Kitty every morning and keep moving.

I have thought about what my vows to her meant, even though we never did the 'legal' piece of paper. We said our vows to each other in private, we lived our vows in public, and our vows were evident in the way that we loved each other and lived our lives....

The one that sticks out the most, was that I would live those vows, and love her until the day that "I" died, not when she did...

A story that I had heard years ago always was in the back of my mind when I thought of love, and relationships. And what they meant to me.

An old man used to visit his wife everyday after she had been placed in a nursing home, after being diagnosed with Alzheimer's.

After about a year, the man was sitting outside on a bench waiting for is bus to venture home, and encountered a person that asked him ..

"Why do you visit everyday, when she doesn't even know you are here ?"

And the man looked them and said...

"She might not, but I do"




Some days are harder than others...Some days are better...

Yet, as I've said before, most days I am actually doing fairly well...

So far, today is good...

LH is getting laid now so he is all touchy feely. I am not, so I just let loose. Seriously though, with certain people my filter just comes off…….

Yea....I don't even want to know anything about that....

: )

Sorry you're struggling with your loss, Mach1.

Thank you

I have to watch myself. I’ve had a 911 call against me on here saying I’m a bully. Just tying a different approach.

New and improved LH ?

Like now with Zero calories ??