Hello my sweet friend. So, I was going to write all the things that one writes...which are true. You are right where are you supposed to be in the grieving process...two steps forward, one back..yada, yada...
But what I really want to say is this...I am so very sorry. I am sorry that you are missing your girl so much. Sorry that you are feeling like 2 people. Sorry that you have to go through this at all.
While I believe that HE has a plan and that all things happen as they are supposed to..it still just svcks. All of it.
I know you..you are impatient with yourself. Expecting to be further along in some ways. Expecting to figure it all out.
I also know that you know it just has to play itself out. It unfolds the way it does. And Cat would be saying..get outta your head some.
Mostly, I wish that you come to have peace in your heart when you are ready. I wish that you have more days of seeing that excitement for what is next. I hope that you aren't too hard on yourself and give yourself the time it deserves to get you where you need to be.
As Brooklyn used to say...the only way to do it..is through it. And you will..I know it. You will do it in your wonderful Mach way..with love and respect and honor.
Love you, sweetie. Always in my thoughts and prayers.
