It's been a few weeks. I hope everyone is doing well.
Update: WW is travelling soon. I don't know for sure if a meeting with OM will happen in the place she is going, although I suspect it will happen. I do know that she wants to meet him, as my instincts about her are strong and even a slight demeanor change usually gets accurately interpreted in my mind. And which OM will turn down a chance to fu*k a hot woman?
Last two weeks she has been quite nasty and crazy. It's as if she was deliberately withdrawing from me - which is, her preparing her mind for travel and quite possibly a rendezvous with the OM. One night, I was chilling in my room when she came inside and launched at me viciously. She continuously accused me of crazy things including how I am giving her anxiety. I know that I have only been nice and calm with her all these months, never raised my voice, and minded my own business so the things causing her anxiety are probably her own issues, related to the divorce and her continued bitterness. She tried very forcefully to get me to talk about how things will be after divorce - even going to the extent of telling me that she will come back to me only if I immediately "show maturity" about D planning and post-D life. She even told me that she knows this influencer who is divorced but takes vacations with her ex-husband and kids, has monthly weekend outings, dinners etc. I did not budge and enforced my boundaries - no post-D talk, no direct insults. Eventually she gave up.
Just a reminder that we are in a farcical IHS, living like a married couple or married parents. I am sure she thinks that even if LTR with OM doesn't work out, she can fall back to me. I am not a psychologist, but OM knows she is a cheater with a special needs child.
In the last month or so I have realized that I have become rather good at avoiding any confrontations and not getting affected by her nastiness. This mindset has been developing for 4 months and I feel it has matured to a degree that makes me feel happy and strong. I am doing plenty of GAL, discovering new strengths, talents. I have finished booking a super GAL - a solo international trip. I'm really excited about it. Professional life is going great, and I have stepped it up.
At this time, the only reason I still want to stay in this marriage is my son. The only time I feel pain, is when I look at his face and think what he will go through. And that is a great pain. Is there anything I should tell her before she travels, since I strongly suspect that she will cheat? Should I make any power moves? How will I find out what she did there? I have been so crazy busy that I've had no time to think about all this. I am thinking as I am writing this.
