Of course the roller coaster continues - the ex didn't write me back about a weird package this weekend and he text me today saying that he was camping. He's in the state visiting his sister but that's also where The woman he developed feelings for lives. I suspect he was camping with her. It shouldn't hurt so much because I know we're over and he is not the man I married, and at this point I don't even think I would want him back? But it's still hurts a lot thinking about him off with another woman. It somehow was okay when he had all these one-sided emotional affairs but now I'm worried that maybe she returns his feelings. It's really stupid and I really shouldn't care but why do I?
I had a suspicion that maybe him hanging out with that other girl was what led his sister to be like what is wrong with him And now I think this whole camping trip text may confirm it. Ugh. How do I fully detach?
