Oh my goodness! I know this sounds silly - and I shouldn't depend on others for validation - but my entire concern for the past few posts were about how accepting others were of the ex's actions.
Well, my sister in law who I have a huge amount of respect for just texted me out of the blue saying that she is really frustrated by ex's actions and is in the baby's and my corner. I know it doesn't change anything but just hearing that is so incredible.
Thank you all for helping me feel validated as well. It's really weird, this week has just been a total "I don't want him back" feeling. I know I'm on the roller coaster but right now if he came to my door and apologized and asked for me back I think I'd say no? It's the first time I felt pretty confident about that.
It's silly but I saw a sweatshirt (of all things!) that said: "What if it all works out?" and I was thinking wouldn't it be nice if it did.
Then I looked around myself - my perfect cute bubbly happy baby, a beautiful cottage by the sea (just renting but hopefully I can rent indefinitely), a well respected job, amazing friends and family. What if this is my happily ever after? I realized I'm okay with that.