What you are going through is awful and many of us here can relate.
Keep taking care of yourself and living your life. It is his journey and you cannot change it. Detaching while living together is hard. You may want to look for Wayfarer’s and May22’s threads. Both of them stood for their marriages and made it to piecing. Maybe their journey’s might provide some insights for you.
Hang in there!
El
Me 52, H 56 T10 M7, 2nd MR for both 2 Step Sons (19 and 21) BD: Fall 2020 D finalized: July 2022 XH Married AP soon after D day.