((Virtual Hugs)) I'm the optimist here. My situation improved within 8 months! As in, we reconciled for a year before calling it quits. I made solid 180s and so did she, but I see where I (and she) could've done more. I feel better about calling it given that extra chance. Self-improvement is a life-long journey! As I continue, I hope to allow even more light and love into my life.
Originally Posted by Reeling
I have reached out to an online therapist service as there is none where I live.
That's great! There are many sites to see therapists virtually such as Talkspace, Betterhealth, and Calmerry. The last time it took me 3-4 switches to get an active therapist who seemed to care. I get it--they're charging 25-50% of their normal rates. My best online therapists matched my best offline therapists. I recommend 1:1 sessions if you seek more than validation.
Originally Posted by Reeling
I feel like I'm living in a nightmare. He cried at our wedding just five years ago. Just months ago he was telling me he loved me. My heart is utterly, utterly broken and I feel so alone. Unfortunately where I live, I have very few friends as we are both expats living in a foreign country. I wish I could stop crying.
Wow--I get feeling alone in that situation! I lived in a foreign country once. Do you speak the language? Are there people there into your culture? Is there an ex pat community? Is there a place nearby you can sit quietly and feel refreshed? It may be worth reaching out to friends and family back home. Having 1-2 people to lean on can make a world of difference.
