I am really just trying to enjoy it for what it is in the moment . I keep hearing in the back of head though “this can only end one way” But maybe I don’t think about the middle or the end. Just the now.
Years of interference putting my dating life out there setting myself up for failure. This can’t work because of this or that , red flag green flag, yellow flag, whatever. It swims in my head and I have lost trust in myself . If I want a long term R don’t do this or that. Not the right guy. You know how this is going to end and blah blah blah.
It’s killed the joy for me I guess. Killed the fun and now I’m just as clueless as when I started.
So for now. Have a good time and don’t sign an ending to the story.
And KML, yea, I said that. I preemptively tried to make sure it stays where it needs to stay for him, because the “stats” say he needs that and it couldn’t work otherwise. A means of protecting myself I guess. A way of not even thinking of me.
I have decided I’m just going to live in the moment . He can figure his size out and I can figure mine out . For now, just one more date Thursday and he’s gone for 2 weeks.
And as for me? I’m just going to keep on going about my days
