Cheaters gonna cheat

[bttrfly]

i'm going to speak for myself and to my own experience: there was a time in my life when i made decisions by general consensus of select trusted people. eventually making decisions that way became a habit. the results were often not what I wanted, but at the time I didn't realize why that was. It was only until I stopped making decisions that way and started relying on my own inner guidance that the results were different.

When something overwhelming happens, like the last 2 years with my son, I still seek as much information as possible, whether it's research or conversations with a few trusted souls. Whether I wanted it or not, believe me those close to me who were in the know offered some pretty stringent and strong suggestions. And suggestions would be a mild word. Statements like, "If you do this he's going to die" or "You're helping him to die, not live" were said to me often by people who'd lived through similar things with their own kids and chose a different path than the one I chose.

I have no idea to this day if the choices I've made were the right ones for my son's long term well being, but I do know that at some point I stopped listening to advice from others. I started praying, meditating and asking for Divine guidance. I asked for signs that I was making the right choices, and I believe those signs were provided to me.

So here we are today. He's alive. He's happier than he's been in a decade. He's figuring out a career for himself. He's in love. He's taking steps towards independence (and I'm dealing with letting go and trusting) ... so I dunno. In my case, in this specific example, I feel like as much as my friends love me and my son, the best thing I did for myself and for my son was to say to these well meaning people, "Thank you. I appreciate your input. Right now I need to go inward, pray and listen for a Divine answer." To a person, they respected that decision. I know they prayed that I wasn't wrong and they continue to pray for both me and my son. And I know they were terrified he would die and I would have to deal with the unfathomable. They're still worried, and I get it, but it's got to be his way because it's his life, and so far it seems to be working out for him.

So all that is a very long way around to saying that my life got better only after I made my inner journey. Once I did that, my decisions became more in line with my inner self, so the results fit because everything was in alignment. It doesn't mean I always get the results I want. I does mean that even when I don't get the results I want, it's easier to accept because I'm operating from a place of alignment with myself, not others'. Make sense?

But just listen to Mach because he's far less wordy than I am and basically he said the same thing.