Running out of steam!

[COG]

Suit,

Once again, thank you for the encouraging words.

Dependency is a precendent to control and that's not good.

Truer words were never spoken. I have only learned that recently and just seeing it written inspires me to pray more about that.

COG, have you given some thought to a future when you do get back together? I think you are in a good place and it may be proactive to consider this option?

I do dream about it sometimes, but all the decisions I have made over the past three years have been made with the belief that some day we will be together. As a result, I have experienced one dissappointment after another. This experience has motivated me to live in the reality of the moment. In other words, we have no plans to get together; therefore, I am a little uncomfortable making plans, or even thinking about a future together. It's definately what I want, hope, and pray for, but until it happens, it's safer to stay in the reality of the moment. Besides, it will make it much more exciting when it does happen.

This from a guy who at one time had his whole life planned out. Career, retirement, life goals, vacations, kids education, travel, etc. etc. all scehduled and planned out until W dropped the bomb on my parade. I think I will just live day to day for a while longer.

Thanks again for your great insight and support.

COG