You know this, and maybe one or two other people here...
You know what I have been going through...
My girlfriend of 13 years passed away last month. She had a long courageous battle with Cancer.
I have been struggling, trying to feel something, and remember who I was before we had met.
Trying to examine if I was broken, or just heartbroken.
Trying to find out if I am still the same person that I was all that time ago.
To those of you who knew her....
She was one of the strongest, fiercest, most passionate woman that I have ever stumbled across.
She was my inspiration daily, to do the best that I could...
G, you knew her, and she knew you ...
She loved you...
When I think about her, and her strength, I think about something that she did for herself to get there...
The 'how' in this may be irrelevant...maybe not.
Roles.....
K would tell me that she would feel life closing in on her at certain times. Her role as a Mother, as a Friend, as an Employee, as a Daughter, as a Sister, as a Lover, as a Partner.....
Through it all , she would often forget that underneath it all, she was a WOMAN...
All of that ^^^ Her drive, her persona, her sexuality, her tenacity, her passion, ALL of it came from her being a Woman....
So she would strip down (literally) and just spend time with her Womanhood. ( She would do these 24-48 hour challenges) Getting to know herself again. It was her recharge, her renewal, often times ? her salvation within herself...
The "how" was merely a symbolism, and a visual tool for the process...
Her "how" isn't for everyone...
I often wonder when I read you G, how much "roles" have kept you in the same place for a long time now.
How much do you recharge the Woman in you ?
How much do you allow the Daughter, Friend, Mother, Employee, Homeowner, EX-wife define who you are ?
How you define yourself as a Woman. without all of the masks that you wear on a daily basis ?
