Well, this week was interesting! STBX caught COVID at a concert - the one that he called to tell me about. It was after I had seen him, so the baby and I are fine. We're going to bring him some food and wave from afar. I'm sure I should be LRTing but I'm feeling more detached and like I'm just doing this for a friend. I don't know if he's dating anyone and I don't care to know. It's gotten to the point where I feel like if he did date a woman I'd feel worried for her I guess? Like in 10 yrs or less he'd have some other upheaval of his personality? Who knows. Not my circus, not my monkeys as they say.
As an aside, back in the wintertime a good friend of mine moved away. After BD#2 he would skip work so we could hang out (we are both MDs) and when he came over for the holidays to meet my parents he was saying to them how wonderful I was and how I don't know my worth as an MD and he's honestly amazing. He had just been broken up with by his girlfriend who didn't want to move away with him. Her loss, because he's genuinely one of the most amazing people I've ever met.
Even though he moved away we talk regularly (we are in a very small field of medicine that most don't understand), he just went on a date with someone and I was kind of bummed to hear that, as silly as it is. I keep telling myself it's best to stay friends and I'm probably not ready to really date someone else yet and it wouldn't be fair to him, but it is bringing up some weird feelings. At the end of the day our friendship is so special I wouldn't want it marred by trying to be more than that. I'm also a mom of a young baby so maybe will hold off on dating until my body's a little less of a leaking postpartum pile and more of the body I know.
Anyway, GAL'ing this weekend with some friends for a games party and bringing the baby, and going on a coffee date with a friend Sunday!
Thanks to everyone thus far for the inspiring and kind words.
