6 month old baby and upcoming divorce

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Newborn,

However in my state you need to pay alimony indefinitely after 10 years of marriage

Indefinitely? Yikes! Definitely don't get caught in that trap.

No bl in regards to do I believe it, maybe not. My self esteem is trashed right now.

It's natural to feel down and a lower self-esteem in these situations. Keep working on yourself and it'll rebound.

I felt awesome yesterday, sent in divorce paperwork, felt like I'm moving on per all y'all recommendations

You sound stronger than most Newbies. I get the sense you're farther along in the process than you realize.

the ex calls me to talk about a concert he went to (we went to same band few years back) and a crazy story about the house. I ended conversation first but he wanted to chat for over 40 minutes. Laughed and talked like old times. It's like the was has a sixth sense!

Good you ended the conversation, but how about letting it go to voicemail next time? Or better yet, the voicemail kicks in because you're off having fun or doing something productive and don't even notice he's calling.