Deja! I’m happy you stopped by! I can relate to or of what you said and your friends observations. I am also guilty of swiping left on guys that I think would never have interest in me. I do think I might “date down” which means I probably am Not there yet with my view of my own self worth. Maybe these guys are a safe spot for me? Although clearly not. I honestly couldn’t imagine a nice good looking well adjusted guy wanting to be with me. Or someone a step “above “ me, so I don’t even bother . It’s something to dig deeper into for sure. And I know I am “only” 42 .but I’m my thirties when I was younger, thinner, prettier , and still ready to bare some more Children, I didn’t find a partner. Now? I’m just out of child bearing/ wanting age and 20 lbs heavier. Atleast is till have good skin . My confidence has gone down a bit in some ways and up in others
BL: As far as my ex and his affair. While I would love to see it fall apart so his wife could get a taste of her own medicine , the truth is, LH is right. I don’t want my daughter to have to go through it. And my ex always comes out on top. He does have it made for sure. He never suffers. If anything, I kind of wish she would cheat on him . But the best I guess is her worrying her a$$ off. Knowing it’s happening but won’t do anything about it. Stay together, but keep that awful gut feeling I lived with
So, guys from my past have been coming out of the woodwork. One that I really did like texted me today . The guy with a 6 and 3 year old. I liked him the most although we are in very different places on our lives. Best kisser ever. Such a good time together . But he has a whole lot on his plate. We are going out next week . It’ll be nice to catch up. I know we will Never go anywhere, but he’s a good time. And did I mention an incredible kisser? Lol. We had had incredible chemistry. Maybe I can learn how to just enjoy that for a little with no expectations. We will see.
I took a 20 mi. Bike ride withu dad and his wife yesterday on the boardwalk along the ocean . The weather was perfect. Then w shot the beach for a bit. I am quite burnt. But it was great. Went to fun tonight, free dinner tomorrow at high end steakhouse. And drinks for a colleagues birthday. She is divorced, still really angry about it, and kind of a recluse . So we are getting her out for her birthday .
