Thank you BL42 for sharing your story and your input. You and the rest of the group have all have been helpful even before the thread as I saw your advice to others'.
Thank you Cadet for the welcome, and KML for your story and kind insight as well. Agreed that I worry about what he'll be like when times are really tough.
It's a little surreal having ya'll respond when I've read so much of your feedback and support to others! Your support is really appreciated.
I talked with my IC today and she asked me what kind of boundaries I want to set for the ex and my baby. I want the baby to know his father of course, but I worry he'll start to flake when I need him. It's so weird having the guy I was married to so long seem to be pretty happy with us, and then turn around and leave without a care in the world.
He babysat a few weeks ago so I could finally go out for one of the first times since having the baby (and COVID, for that matter), a gala to celebrate a close friend. I know we're divorcing but he didn't comment at all on how nice I looked or asked how the night went.
It reminds me of one time we were going out to dinner and I told him about the plans and he said "beautiful", and I joked me or the plans? And he rolled his eyes and told me that I shouldn't fish for compliments, it is unattractive. Made me realize how long it had been since he told me I was.
I think (and I know this is foolish and unhelpful thinking) that I just must seem really ugly and old compared to his young friends. Like a sad old wrinkled mom compared to all of his 20something friends trying to figure their way out in the world.
