Hi All, and thank you BL42 and kml for checking up on me. As an update, I have given birth to a beautiful baby girl born 5 days overdue and as expected, had to be induced. It was such an easy birth in the end, but as all newborns are, she is quite the handful, so apologies for such a delayed response.
My H is still in the spare bedroom, but is talking about taking another place nearby. He has been helpful and I am glad he was there for the birth and afterwards. I am sure though that at this point I don't have feelings for him anymore and accepted that. I am also expecting that he will run off again, so have been preparing my son and myself for whatever comes. My MIL just returned to the UK last night and I am left in my newborn bubble. I miss my MIL already. She was so good to me and my son that I wonder how she could raise someone like H.
On another note, I reconnected with my ex before H from 13 years ago in the UK. Our relationship then was not serious. We had our issues and when he left to work in another city, I took my opportunity to break it off. Somehow he ended up in Australia and divorced. We are just friends at the moment, but it is nice that he makes me feel heard and understood through my issues. I know I have other matters to focus on, and I understand that being a single mum with two children will not be an attractive trait for most men, so I am not expecting anything from this or anything at the moment.
I apologise in advance again if my replies are slow again, as my time and schedule is now solely ruled by a 2 week-old. It feels like my life at the moment is in a pause where the universe is telling me to re-evaluate my priorities and actions, but I am OK with it.
