Hi All. It’s been awhile since I posted. Not much has been going on. Just living my life and staying open to whatever life has in store for me.
On the house front…that’s a bit stalled at the moment. Partially because of the state of the world these days and the fluctuating prices with everything. My BIL knows several people who have stopped in the middle of building to see if things will even out over the next little while. The other part of it is that the planning and permit process is heavily reliant on my BIL and he seems to be going through some sort of an existential crisis. My sister and I tried to talk to him the other day about it and he basically ranted about how disappointed and angry he is at people and the world in general. I think this could be his version of an MLC. He’s usually pretty mellow and even-tempered. I haven’t seen him like this before. My sister sent him off on a trip with his best friend to see if that might help snap him out of it. He’s home tomorrow and my sister is leaving on a business trip for four days so it will be me, him and my kids. My sister is back on Friday and then she and I are going on a five-day road trip to Portland. After I’m back, I have a three-day work week and then it is off to XH1’s parents’ 50th wedding anniversary. I’m taking my kids this time and we are turning it into a mini-vacay. I got an Airbnb next to a lake so we are just going to chill for a few days before heading back home. Looking forward to it.
On the man front…nothing too significant to report. I’m still talking regularly to the guy that I went to high school with who lives an hour and a half away. I joked with him the other day that I would come to his 99th birthday party (irrelevant side story to that) and he texted that he hoped he would get to see me before then. I told him he seemed too busy to fit me onto his dance card and he agreed that he works too much and should stop in to see me next time he is driving through my town. Not holding my breath.
I also have been playing a lot of pool with my friend who just turned 40. I know he has a thing for me but he is way too young and more like a little brother to me so that is a line I will never, ever cross. I pretend I don’t know about his crush and keep my boundaries really clear and so far, it is working out well. We are both getting better at pool…lol. Recently he disclosed to me that he is a closet alcoholic and has stopped drinking. He’s off work for awhile so he can get his physical and mental health together. He lost both his parents by 16 and his only sister about seven or eight years ago and I think just developed some poor coping mechanisms.
There is one other guy but the jury is out. About six weeks ago, my sister and I ran into a childhood friend that we haven’t seen since high school. He grew up about three blocks from us and we were good friends all the way through elementary school. Anyway, my sister was shocked because she had just added him as a FB friend a couple days before and then all of a sudden, there he is. We chatted for a bit and I added him a few days later. Time has been very kind to him. He’s about 6’2” and looks like an athlete. Seems like a really nice guy… ironically has twins too that are a year younger than mine. Don’t know the story there…just that he hasn’t been with the mom in years. Anyway…he started sending me random cute videos on Messenger and we just started chatting pretty regularly a couple of weeks ago. He is another guy that seems pretty busy. He has asked me a couple of times if I have any plans (for the next day) and every time he has, I have had plans…lol. I realized the other day that he may think I’m not interested. I find myself reluctant to go out of my way to meet with him. Not sure why. Possibly because he is the first guy in awhile that I’ve been physically attracted to and it has made me feel a bit vulnerable…lol. I like the friendship we are developing and I don’t want to get sucked into anything. I also remember hearing rumours about 17 years ago that he was having substance abuse issues so that has me a bit wary as well. I haven’t asked him about it. I’m saving that for when/if we meet in person.
And then there is XH1… we still keep in touch. He’s still pretty attractive to me. But…really like our friendship and I just don’t think it would be wise to go down that road again…at least not now. Probably why I’m bringing my kids with me…lol. Good protection from doing anything stupid.
So that’s it for me. Nothing earth shattering. (((HUGS))) to all!!!
