At 10pm I finally have a chance to reply on here. The full moon is a real Thing in healthcare.
As you know, the above made me shed some tears. Good tears.
I do think men are intimidated by me. By all I’ve been through and the fact that I’ve got most of poop together despite it. And I think where I truly go wrong Is wanting these guys who have been through heck to have their sh!t together too. Bit as we know, they don’t. I know that I attract men that have been through hell and as I have said I feel I initially can connect with them more. Bit as time goes on….. I am making it, and many of them still are floundering . And I imagine that might become too much. And for me, quite honestly, it just becomes frustrating for me.
I do finally realize my relationship status doesn’t define me. I just really want some healthy companionship of the opposite sex. It sounds like it should be simple, but it’s been harder and more impossible for me than I have ever imagined. But I know being single is not who I am.
I would imagine that there are so many 'broken' people just looking for almost the same thing.
Mostly looking for Sex, or a Mother figure, somebody to be a "right now" fix for their long term dysfunction by hding in your emotional 'basement'....
Someone whole, to help put back together their pieces...
Someone to help them not be in whatever pain that they are in.
NOT understanding that the "pain" , is what separates you from them...
YOU faced yours and did the work, they haven't..
And most of them probably don't even know that about themselves until they find out that they are an emotional pony, running in your race horse world.
YOUR definition of what love looks like is so much different than what - I would imagine- the majority of other peoples looks like. I would think that you are a magnet for someone looking to be fixed...
I had always heard that if you vent down, you grow down...
And to grow upward, you vent upward....
So if you date an emotional 3 , and you are an emotional 9....
That must be like shopping for Gucci at the Dollar store.....for ONE of you....
Change that up a bit....
How available are you with your time , I mean with all that you fill your life with...
How available are you to get a outside of your comfort zone a bit?
And with that, I mean how welcoming is you aura and spirit to welcoming the unexpected ??
It's when your heart and spirit are open, and your eyes closed, that IT will find you my dear...
Your person is out there, and they are just as frustrated as you are right now. Which , I would imagine, has them just as closed off and shopping in the same stores as you are...over and over again, seeing the same items in the clearance bin...
No offense meant....but there is a reason that most daytime soap operas typically center around a hospital.
My ex was in the medical field....she went through 3 Doctors until THEY hit the jackpot with that one...
To have different results....DO different...
Originally Posted by G
I’m making a difference somehow some way and that’s what’s most important. I just want to leave good imprint on this world. It’s personally important to me. And a relationship does not define that
You are more than you think ....
And that's the best thing I've heard you say in a long time....
