I had my friends here and spent time with them and their new baby. I just loved watching their partnership, how good they are to eachother, what relaxed parents they are and how happy they are.
I guess that manifested itself in a dream for me. My ex and I had our daughter again. And we were in love. We were eating up every moment of our daughter, being so helpful to eachother and we had so much love for eachother .
I wish I could have a do over sometimes. I didn’t get to enjoy it the way I should have. The tension was there, I knew something wasn’t right . And then by 6 months , I was a single parent going through complete devastation. I didn’t get to enjoy my one and only’s early years the way I should have. I was blinded by hurt and fear. It probably the biggest thing taken away from me in all of this
