We are living in strange times.

[DonH]

Wow, this is kinda surreal - still making the hair stand up on the back of my neck. To the few remaining veterans, you'll likely remember who Wild Girl was. To the newer folks or those needing a mind prompt, we had first officially met like 5 years ago, dated for about 9 or 10 months or total, solid for 4 or 5 months, took her on a cruise (the first cruisegate) sorta continued then again for a few months after that and now have had zero contact with her in well over a year, though I still see her parents and aunt on a regular basis and always talk with them. I've known her aunt for over 30 years.

I swear I saw a push notification saying "missed Facetime call from Wild Girl" I looked and it changed to a different looking message and then disappeared. I was fully awake, it was I think Saturday or Sunday afternoon. I know I saw it, yet I cannot find a record of it. I just chalked it up to her BF hacking into her phone again - it's happened several times before, but again not in the last year or even 2. I'm playing with bands this coming weekend at the festival that we met at and then several years later hung out with her, her family, BFF and kids. We then went out the following week and continued through the summer and into Fall. Anyhow, I had this funny feeling she was going to turn up there again this weekend - something just told me. I've had feelings like this throughout my life - not with her, just in general. It doesn't happen often, I'm not physic or anything, just sometimes get these very strong premonitions and I very often can figure things out and am a very good read of people and situations. So I would not at all have been shocked to see her on Saturday.

That will not be happening as she was found deceased Monday night around 8 PM at home. No known cause of death although evidently she's been depressed, lost weight, lots of drinking, lots of sleeping, avoiding people, you know the drill. It's rumored her BF was starting the process to have her evicted - he owns the house and she moved in with him about 2 or 3 months after our final date.

It's certainly very sad. Her older brother died about 18 months ago of alcoholism. Her parents will now burry their second child. She's 46. Her girls are ending their junior and freshmen years of college. I'm sure I'll find out more. Of the women I've dated since my D, )dated seriously or at least more than casually), she's the second one to die unexpectedly. The first I dated in 2008 and was shocked about 5 years later, after thinking "I wonder what Chris is doing now" only to have her death notice appear in the Google search results. She was only 38 at the time - accidental overdose. This may be the same, or alcohol damage, or suicide - though I can't imagine her leaving her girls like that.

Wow. So sad. What else can I say, it's just sad.