I'm happy to see that you are posting quite often now. This will definitely help you in your process of taking steps and moving forward.
I did that as well in the most difficult times and the feedback you get from all the people here, who have experienced this process you are currently eperiencing (and in particular from DnJ) is a huge help.
Your posts reasonate a lot with my progress as well. We are not exactly in the same position, in some ways you have processed things which I haven't and visa versa.
That's why it is really helpful to follow your thread.
I'm also seeing a therapist and I'm working on my deeper feelings and past currently. And believe me, it is hard but ohhh so necessary.
I'm also in the phase where I'm packing and sorting stuff now to be prepared for the move the beginning of July. To me it feels like a relief. Luckily I'm good at throwing things away. LOL.
In regards to your STBXH, certainly guilt...and as D always says and even you posted this on my thread " things are not always as they appear".
I was also reading the discussions in regards to the changes in personality. These changes were/are very much present within my XH too, he also is trapped in his 17 year old personality. I also strongly believe that there is some sort of personality disorder in place but I can't pin one specifically as yet.
Originally Posted by Elbereth
I’m trying to get to the point that I am excited about the growth and my future, but I’m still in the feeling overwhelmed stage. I’m hoping that once the move is done and I get a job or income that I’ll feel a bit more on my feet.
As kml stated, it will get better once you are settled in your new home. A whole new beginning, that is what we both need now.
