Yeah, its coming to 4 years. My kids are 9 and 12 respectively and yeah, at times I do also wonder if there may be affair or OM but I just don't go and think of it.
The promise I made to myself is if there is one and I witness it myself, I will stop sending and proceed immediately with the serving of the papers. Otherwise, I do not wish to be involved or dwelling in what she is doing. It would be tough for me to move on. So I channel my energy and everything to my kids and myself
With regards to the drinking portion, Steve yeah I think I might be an alcoholic and the longest streak that I stop drinking is about a week lol. It's the only "vice" I keep now. I used to smoke, and quite heavily to keep me going with the daily stress and etc. Till I quite smoking cold turkey years back. I turned to drinks.
On normal days (like most days lol), I do 2-3 drinks. Heaviest I go when drinking alone is around 6 drinks. But yeah. I am working towards refraining except for occasions. I think it's like that saying.... you become a smoker when you start to buy your own cigarette than smoking what others offer you and an alcoholic when you start to drink alone...
M:38 W:38 T:14 M: 12 S:9 S:6 BD: 07/18 W Moved out: 5/19 W Moved in: 7/19 D draft received: 12/19
