Feels like failure again

[BL42]

Bunches,

Still - why did you stay after she cheated twice in the first year of marriage?

I don’t know that I can give a reason that would make sense to anyone.

My ExW & I went to all of 3-4 MC sessions before she finally admitted the affair and said she wanted a D. Afterwards I contacted the counselor separately to try to make sense of things. Her comment to me will always stand out in my mind: "You should think about what it says about you that you'd still want to be with someone who betrayed you."

Sounds like you could use some self-reflection here as well.