I had lots of partners in the early years of my life, but when I was "with" someone either in an exclusive dating situation, living with, or being married to them, I was monogamous to them. I just know that I have the capability of having lots of lovers again just for the physical release.
Okay, so the emotional component won't be there. I recongnize that is a very powerful force in the boudoir that can add more to the experiance. The lack of that emotional attachment can be very problematic, especially for women. Many need to have the emotional before they can find satisfaction with the physical. I don't have the option of emotional right now, but I would, if I so choose, go with the physical for now. I have not as of yet...my choice, though it is really hard to continue to say no to those that are interested....Thank Gawd I know that I am still a desireable woman thanks to these offers. My H has shot down my feminity and sexuality so often it has been hard to remember that I can draw men to me if I just work it a little...
Mo, you at least have a H that wants to have an emotional attachment with you. Mine has not been either emotional of physical for many years, I'm starving for the slightest bit of attention and I know how capable I am for doing the bed hopping again, just to get some of my physical needs addressed.
I'm detaching more and more as time goes on from him, hope for recognition that there was even a marriage between us at one point is dissolving into nothingness. But it is still hard. I have needs that have not been addressed for so long, I won't know how I'm going to react when something does happen. Just might dissolve into tears for all that I've missed from a H that rejected me. That's why the reference to the Kleenex.
