Also, I did something stupid over the weekend after one too many cocktails. H is out in Vegas with OW for a bowling tournment, getting wasted everyday Im sure.. I could kick myself now for doing this but I sent him a text that said "please be safe out there, I miss you" And OMG, he monstered at me like crazy. Went off about me talking with one of his friends on the phone (he checked the phone bill) figured out it was this friend that "made up stories" about him with all of the other women. Told me that I did not love him that I hated him, if I loved him I would not believe all the lies his friend is telling me . That he is not a guy lost to a party life, it is the opposite. That I made him out to be a monster by my words and actions, that I am not fighting for him or us that I am destroying us and his image. That I don't believe in him anymore. That his is still the same compassionate made and that I have created a image of him that is not true.. very very angry rant. I did respond by saying... I am sorry you feel that way, and did not mean to upset you, have a good night.
Originally Posted by Stella20
The week before he left, he was texting me about a house we used to look at all the time. It was our dream home and we would drive past it all the time. We always said we would buy it if it ever went up for sale. Well he text me last week that it was for sale and I was right it is well over our price level, that the house was the perfect home. He went on for about a half an hour about the house and memories of all the times we talked about it...WTF???
So Stella I think the first thing you need to ask is "do I feel better or worse after these conversations"?
Originally Posted by Stella20
And before you tell me to block him, I just can't yet.
What is keeping you from blocking him?
Originally Posted by Stella20
Maybe when the D is final I will be able to find the courage to do that. I just can't yet. But I have come along way in 5 months..
So how is now different than 5 months ago? What has changed?
