Today, I literally started to have a panic or anxiety attack or what to me felt like one. Something happened today that just put me backwards again. And I tried to just move forward and focus on packing, but I just could not distract myself.
Dear El, I'm sorry to hear that.
Originally Posted by Elbereth
I’m not sure if I mentioned on here much that I have had a very hard time crying. I feel numb still and it is something I am talking with my IC about. But today, I cried. More than I have in a long time. What happened was just one of those “REALLY? NOW THAT TOO?” moments and I just crashed.
Crying is really a very good thing my dear. This means you are processing,
Originally Posted by Elbereth
It just hurts too much and too deeply. I am wondering what the universe is really trying to teach me? I’m trying to listen. I’m trying my best to grow and move forward. But what the heck…does it have to be this darn hard?
This is a question I also sometimes ask myself. You have to know that I'm an extremely positive person, some people used to say, even in the most difficult times, you still manage to see the positivity in things and make the best out of it. This unfortunately has not been the case for the past 3 years, although that person is coming back in bits and pieces. Yes, the pain is just too extreme, too deep. But you will get through it. I promise.
