eo, You are experiencing the return of old unwanted feelings after the high of last week and this gives you the oportunity to self soothe until you stop looking for validation from your H but get that validation from within yourself. I have found conscious self soothing to be incredibly powerful because it allows you to stay thinking clearly instead of rising to the bait and arguing or sulking. The efforts you have made so far are the envy of this forum and armed with the knowledge from SSM and PM there is no reason why you should ever go backwards. It is also fascinating to learn that your H is now having to turn you down. I suspect that most of us HDs would not be able to keep up once a day for long despite what we might think! Of course we have never been fully tested SD
