Thanks for the support. L meeting today, and I reflect on what is right for me and kids. You are all correct. I want 50/50 even with D2. I need a clean break, no common sharing, coming over, blurring boundaries. I haven't deeply loved my W for ten years, I deserve better. I surprise myself with my stength in that I do tell myself what I want in the future, the kind of partner I deserve.
I have time before that becomes a reality, moving out is minimum two months or longer. IHS [censored], but that is my reality. I know I have the power to keep detaching and improving myself.
