EO's journal

[eyesopened]

I'm the LD wife in our marriage (husband is very HD). We're both comfortable with sex and both of us enjoy it. Until recently, however, we were only ML 2 or 3 times a month partly because his job requires a lot of travel (in fact, he just returned from a week long trip on Friday and found out today that he needs to go out of town tomorrow for another week), mostly because we were in a downward spiral where we felt distant and irritated with each other and he'd stopped initiating because I turned him down once too often. I was a potential walkaway wife until I read an article by Michele and then bought her books, including TSSM, found this board, and finally realized the hurt and rejection my husband felt especially since sex had been terrific and frequent BK (before kids).

We both have some family of origin issues but I believe that they're not as important as I used to think they were. I've been using Michele's KLA (keeping love alive) tapes and have apologized to my husband for turning him down and have promised that I won't turn him down, that I will ML and give him any other type of physical affection whenever, wherever, and however he wants. He's also said that he prefers that I sleep next to him with nothing on but his favorite perfume (he's very touch and smell oriented), which I've been doing whenever possible for the past month or so.

To make a long story short, I've decided to start journaling because I'm trying not to backslide especially in light of increasing passive aggressive behavior from him after an initial "honeymoon" period.