What do you mean? To truly DB you are becoming a better version of yourself. Is that what you are doing?
Sure you are right, I just meant in the context of saving the marriage. I don't want to save it. She can't be what I need, what I want, what I deserve.
When we started counselling 6 months ago, when I started to lose weight, it all related to a deep awakening I had for a deep connection with someone, something I never felt before. That is what I see in my future. I actually tell that to myself a couple times a week. I surprise myself because before I started IC, I only had deep negative thoughts. A part of me over the last 6 months was always like, if W changed, how awesome would that be? She hardly ever changed in our 10+ years together. Maybe if I set the boundaries early on, but I never had the wisdom or emotional maturity for that.
I should be browsing for apartments now. It could be a quick sale.
