Today has not been fabulous. My gut was of course right, as always. I got a call from my boss that I didn’t get the job. An hour later I had to log onto a staff meeting in which it was announced. My boss kindly offered me the position of the person who got the job. It’s a lateral move. Gee, thanks. Offer me the leftover position of the one who got the one I want. I declined it as I don’t like that position and the only perk is no weekends or holidays but they don’t bother me. So I don’t want it.
I can’t lie. I didn’t even really process it, and I had to listen to it on the meeting and I am kind of in tears . I am very fortunate to work with people who love me and respect me and provided me some comfort . It’s hard not be discouraged. I do believe I deserved it and would have been great at it. I did make a personal decision though. Before I even knew this job could possibly become available, I was everyone’s point person. Someone didn’t know what to do, they come to me, not the supervisor. Because I do know. And I explain well. Well, I’m done with that now. I will direct them to the manager. It sounds craPy and maybe I feel that way, but I do. And I’m only going to be flexible with my weekends when I can, and I’m not going to go out of my way to make them work. Hard work does not pay off sometimes, lol. I guess the plan is to work 2 jobs until I can leave here. I hate having to tell my daughter I didn’t get it who thought I was a shoo in. And she my ex and his wife.
The universe made this decision for a reason. And I know i badly want to move in 3 years. This likely would have stopped me.
In other news, I actually have a date second date tonight. Nice guy who just moved from TX. Unattached, adult daughter, chemistry , thoughtful. Hopefully this continues to move along in a positive direction.
I’m pretty down though, but I plan on turning myself around for this date tonight .
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