I think my journals get longer and longer...LOL...

(warning: this is venting )

Okay. I am very sick of xrm. H just called me, he had just woke up. He wanted to tell me to not come directly over after work, because xrm would be coming by to get her stuff. Which is fine. I understand exactly what kind of scene he's trying to avoid.

He told me about his convo with xrm. That he had called her just before me, to ask her to come get the last of her stuff. That she had asked him if something was wrong, that he sounded funny. H said he was just tired. She asked again what was wrong. H told he just didn't know what to do about the whole mess.

I am so ticked off at him. On some level, he clearly still wants to be friends with this girl. After all this nonsense! Hello, she has a problem with him spending time with me, his wife.

She has cussed him out, left him horrible messages, stolen money from him, refused to pay her half of the rent this month. He doesn't want me around her because he's afraid she'll do/say something to me. He was paranoid she was going to show up at my apartment in the middle of the night, so much so that he asked me to spend the night somewhere else. He keeps asking me to make sure that I'm armed, and paying attention. And he keeps checking every car that drives by to see if it's her! Not to mention that she's gotten really creepy about the cats...

And he still wishes that they could be friends! It makes me soooo mad. I'm looking over my shoulder all day long, and he's sorry his friendship went down the tubs.

Okay, he's not really that stupid. I don't think he still wants to be friends with her, just that he wishes it hadn't gotten so out of hand. Can you say "EA"?

I realize it's not her so much that he's missing, as what he thought his friendship with her was and the way she made him feel. But it still burns me up.

Okay. Taking a deep breath. I feel better now. He will come around, he will see how silly all of this is. I just need to let him take it at his own pace. I pushed and insisted before with his "friend" (PA) after first sep, not going to do that this time. He has made a point of telling me I win, he chooses me. I have to let him handle this his own way. (Just reminding myself of stuff I already know.)

[color:"purple"]Nevanna[/color]