Are you still in IHS? I'm not sure what to say about your latest update other than it's good to hear from you and there are a lot of folks here wishing you the best.
Hi BL - yes. It was very awkward at first but as time went on and calmed, things got more comfortable. Detachment helps a lot with this. Also the awareness that you cannot control anyone other than yourself. I had no desire to leave, so why would I?
If there were real life OP this would not be ideal, but as far as I'm aware there has not been.
Thanks for your well wishes. Hope you are well too
Originally Posted by SteveLW
IW, I was hoping to hear from you that the increased IC sessions were having an impact on your PTSD. I have a family member that suffers from it and he really embraces the 1 day at a time attitude that you seem to have embraced as well. So keep up the good work there.
Remember life is 10% what happens to us (out of our control because of the free-will of other people) and 90% what our attitude towards it is. So keep doing what you are doing to cope, mainly working with your IC. Also, have you ever been evaluated by a psychiatrist? That might be a good next step. Brain chemistry is a strange beast.
I see you saying you are doing a lot of alone time. I am not opposed to alone time at all, but I worry that maybe you are over doing that? Maybe it is time to start spreading your wings and meeting new people that can be positives in your life. I don't know if you are religious at all, but I certainly couldn't imagine going through tough times without God's word, prayer, and my church family. I do not mean to preach but only to provide what has worked for me.
I do think that at this point, 3 years after BD, you have to start reexamining things and start to evaluate what you can do differently to move forward. I am not even sure what I am suggesting with this, but at some point you have to decide if the state of things currently are still working for you and if you need to change things up. Life is so short I would hate to see you stuck in one state for a long time.
Pulling for you IW!
Hi Steve good to hear from you. IC has helped me enormously. Finances mean IC sessions are limited to once a mo th but I do what I can. A psychiatrist is out of my means ATM so I keep up IC
Yes your family member is right about one day at a time. That's how we live our lives anyway - we don't know what tomorrow will bring and yesterday already happened.
Part of my ptsd is related to religious happenings when I was a kid. Some abuse happened when I was in a church group, and I'm not really comfortable talking about it here. Needless to say it's been something I am working on with IC. That is not to say any bad things about others choices or beliefs. But religious groups are a big trigger for me and the trust issues that shattered are not things that pass overnight.
It will be alright, Steve. I thank you for your concern If I was no longer comfortable in my situation I would leave. I'm under no illusions about where I am or what is happening, but nothing is holding me back from doing the things I always wanted to do in my life. There is still zero desire for finding OP. Maybe that changes in a decade or whatever but that time has not come yet.
Thanks man, I appreciate you checking in. Hope you are well too
