Get out of your job - current job market is great and you can't keep working Herr. I dunno how you worked with your spouse in the first place.

I'd go out more like you did with your friend. Regain your confidence and swagger. Stabilize emotionally and realize you will make it through this and that you get to decide who and what you are.

Resist the urge to psychoanalyze. You have better things to do.

H 34
W 29
BD 3/12/18
Divorce Busted Spring 19

It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.