I haven't read your threads, but see you're back after a 10 year hiatus.
What does "I Am Still Standing" mean from a practical perspective? If you haven't heard from your ExW in over a decade...have you reached out to her? have you dated other people?
Me:39 Ex-W:37 M:7 T: 9 S:6 D:3 BD/IHS/Confirm EA/PA: Feb '20 OM1 affair ends: May '20 W/OM2 & moves out: June-July '20 W files for D: Jul20 OM2 confirmed: 9/2020 Divorced: May '21