Quote: why do you get so freaked out about spotting H?
I am shy to, probably, almost the point of social phobia. I have a hard time speaking up around people. It's annoying, it's unpredictable, and it's something I've been fighting with for years. I have no idea why some things bother me more than others.
We both belong to Bally. There were a couple of times I got panicked just walking upstairs and the place was full of people. And I mean serious panic--to the point of near hyperventillation. Very annoying.
H wants to go again tonight--and I do, too--so I'm going to stick with has worked in the past. I am going to envision myself having a good time, and actually encouraging H like he wants me to do. I am going to go in with the attitude that I am going to have a great time and a great workout. Hmm...even outlining this is beginning to make me smile.
Focussing on the why it bothers me only seems to make it worse (because then I'm still thinking about the feelings associated). So I'm not gonna do that. I think I'll give H a few tips on things what, although they wouldn't seem like it, focus my attention back to on those uncomfortable feelings.
Does that make any sense?? I guess it doesn't matter. As long as it works.
Focussing on how I'm going to have a good time later...
As long as it works.
