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Does H know how much you "need" him?




I hadn't thought of that. I guess I just figured, all of that didn't work before, so I was trying to avoid it. I have been trying to get closer, to let go more around him. I've just been afraid of pushing him away again. Maybe I should be looking for some sort of in between, then.

One thing I'm really trying to do is make sure I meet his emotional needs better. Like with the gym. We used to just, really, car-pool there together. Last week was the first time we've actually worked out together. I know it's something he's wanted for a long time. We're supposed to go later today, after he gets done with GED class, and I know he's really looking forward to it.

You know, I don't really know what the deal with his roommate is. I know he doesn't want to put her in a position where she has no place to go. He's very sensitive to that--there was a point in his life when he was actually homeless.

I don't know if you caught it, it's further up in my thread, but H is moving out of his apartment, here in about two weeks. He's already started packing. He's actually moving in with his mom. I think he would just move in with me, except she recently lost her job and needs the money.

I really don't think he wants me to beg him to come back. I did that a lot at first, and he actually used to get mad. Absolutely furious with me. But I guess I also assumed that he's the one who left, so it was up to him to come back. Maybe I should ask him if he wants to live with me sooner...? I need to think about this some more.


[color:"purple"]Nevanna[/color]