Thanks for the suggestions and feedback. I can’t really tap into the equity of my home because my credit achieve that they run isn’t quite where they want it to be. I have consolidated debt I had a year ago and am paying it off . Only I accumulated more. And It’s not on frivolous stuff. I’m not living on ramen over here, but I’m not a big spender at all. Once in a blue moon I say screw if and do something nice or fun because it’s just not going to change the financial situation, it’s really just cost of living is more than I make. Not much I can do about that. Except make more Money at this point. And I already work OT.
That being said, our supervisor told us she is leaving today. She is having health issues and took a job close to home. If anyone recalls, this was the position people encouraged me to take when the last one retired, I didn’t pull the trigger and when I considers it, the spot was already filled by this person. Today upon the news, I had 2 people suggest I go for it. I don’t know what to do. I am scared of rejection. I am Scared of the change since I like my unit. Love working with my social worker everyday. It would definitely be more money. I don’t know what to do.
As far as my ex, I am not asking him for more money. He won’t give it to me. He nickels and dimes me. When we split some the big, it’s down to the cent. If we take our daughter to dinner, he splits the bill right down the middle. If I go through the courts I think at best I would get $50 More a month . Not worth it They live off of both of their salaries but child support is only figured off of his salary which is less than mine. So they get to vacation, not pay for nearly as much as I do and andhave 2 incomes contribute if towards the same mortgage amount , if not less than mine . I just got screwed in every way. He is the last place I can look for money. I’m not his problem and his daughter doesn’t lack anything, so why would he? I don’t think my struggle concerns him at all. Nor do I share them with him. The only time I ever would is when I can’t provide for our daughter. I still can, thankfully.
Everything just kind of stinks. Not much I can do about it. I’ve explored every avenue to solve my problems, but sometimes, there is not solution. I’ve just accepted it. I’ll work extra when I can, accept vacations and the frills are something i can’t have. At least my kid gets them with her dad and his wife, right?
Tomorrow is their 11th wedding anniversary. April fools. Who would have thunk they would make it is far and I would still never have remarried and still be single and struggling? Crazy, isn’t it?
