Small update… not a lot going on in my world that is new.
I’ve been driving my new car for over a week now and LOVE it!! Any reservations I had about spending that much money on a vehicle evaporated the second I drove it away from the dealership. That and I also found out I have three years of free charging on their Electrify Canada network. As luck would have it, the only station on the Island is located three minutes from my house.
In three weeks, I will be taking my first new car road trip which I have nicknamed “road trip to my past”. My XH (first one), his parents, his siblings and all my nieces/nephews from that side, minus the eldest who is going to medical school in another province, will be there. Totally looking forward to seeing all of them and to the drive itself as my two eldest nephews will be with me. I haven’t seen them since they were 16 and 17 years old. They are 29 and 30 now!!
Speaking of first XH, I had a very strange dream the other night. I dreamt that I was getting married again and when I walked up to the alter, I was completely shocked to see him standing there. Ummm… haven’t dreamt about him or thought about him in at least 20 years. What the heck is that about? Perhaps my upcoming trip has my subconscious working through leftover feelings?? Ours was a different kind of divorce. We never got to the point where either of us had any resentments towards the other one. At the time, we just felt like we had drifted apart and were going in different directions and we were young enough that breaking up didn’t seem like that big of a deal. It felt more like a gift we were giving each other.
Now…22 years later…we still hold each other in very high regard and both of us are single and not really dating. Since my divorce, we’ve been talking on average about once every couple of weeks. When I was married, it was about once a year with the odd visit if XH and I were in the area. He’s a good looking, smart, kind and honest guy… pretty much the type of guy I’m trying to find on OLD. He is already a part of my life… my sister and husband like him and my kids do too (they’ve met him a few times over the years). I love his family and they love me. In a lot of ways, it would make sense for us to try again so I get why my subconscious has been trying the idea on for size.
Anyway… this isn’t something I had been consciously thinking about until I had that dream and now I’m getting increasingly nervous about this trip down memory lane. I’m a bit worried he’s been thinking about this too and I really don’t want to screw up a lifelong friendship because we’re both disillusioned with OLD and missing the intimacy and partnership that comes with having a significant other. My plan is to spend as much time with the family as possible and as little time as possible with him on his own…lol.
Anyway…lunch is over. Just wanted to update everyone and tell you what my mind has been preoccupied with lately.
