Thank you all, I went to the doctor and was tested for everything back in December, thank God I am clean. Yes, I will need to talk to a IC.
I know this is probably normal, but I woke up this morning and I am just having a hard time. Is this all true??? Is this really who I was married to??? How can it be true?? How could everthing I heard be made up? If so why would someone make it all up?
Everything he does he takes to the extreme, drinking, gambleing now sex too.. with strangers with people I know...with lies...
I really thought H was a good man. I really thought that we would R & spend the rest of our lives together. I know that will never happen now, how could it. He will never admit to this. His friends and him will take this to his grave....
I have many memories of his love and caring, of him bursting with joy, I saw him happy. But now that I have been reflecting on our life together, there a many small moments that now seem....off.
The one person in my life that was my rock, the love of my life, my H, why???? why????
