Your are completely right Steve, and I know I screwed up. Its hard some day knowing she has some one to talk to in OM and to keep her occupied. Part of the reason I did what I did on Friday where I guess I manipulated her, so I could talk was to try to get a firm time on tellling the kids, but I should of handled it differently. I do have my sister and friends but I haven’t been able to yet as we still haven’t talked to the kids. And out of respect to them I want them to know first, then that will make things easier I believe for me as I can then Talk to more people openingly. There has been so much going on with me and her, her grandma now my sister in the last week. But yes, I need to absolutely go dark. Yesterdays ordeal with my sister scared the [censored] out of me as I thought she was having a stroke, and that is what killed my brother at age 50. My mind and emotions have been everywhere. I know there have been way worse stories than mine and probably way better stories on her than mine, but I need to commit to my story and as you said go dark and only short responses if needed at all. I appreciate you all for the tough love and help provided to me. Now I just need to take the info and not just partially implement it but full commit to it.
