I’m so sorry Stella. You must be in absolute shock. It must make you feel like your entire marriage has been a scam.
Know this - someone with that level of addiction can not be fixed. Not by you, not by a psychologist, not by anyone. The hardest reality here is that he will be like this for the rest of his life. Any apparent improvement or commitment to change his life is a lie.
You need to start or increase IC. It will take a lot of professional help and time for you to heal from this trauma. At the moment you’re in shock, so it will get worse before it gets better.
We are all here for you.
Oh, and go and see your regular doctor. You need to prioritise screening for STDs.
